Just my thoughts today

I had this great journal entry I wanted to share today, but I changed my mind. Just gonna write what comes to mind right now.

Something I will share from my journal is the word, word... in Greek this is logos... which means something said including the thought, Divine expression, reason, mind, wisdom.

Divine expression... I just realy like the way it sounds, the way it feels when I think it or say it... Makes me think of last night when I caught my 3 year old, Lillian ripping out the screen in my window. As I pulled her from her entanglement in the torn screen shes screaming " I want my luna! I want luna!" She was trying to get to the moon (which she has always called luna). She thinks she can get to the moon if she has a ladder and walks far enough. She loves her Luna and says Luna is her friend. Shes a dreamer and she is a very passionate child... I am so blessed. (torn screen and all:)
After the kids went to sleep Josh and I sat outside gazing at the sky talking about the vastness of it and how we want to go somewhere with no light polution some day... wonder how far we would have to go for that. Its times like those when I wish my husband and I could have had time as adults before we had children. I became a mother at 15, I would not take it back if I had it to do over again, never would I do that, it is deeply ingrained in who I am. I just want to have more opportunities to go exploring with my husband find our real passions, not just things that interest us. Being parents of four make spontineity a serious challenge when finances are tight.
Okay, moving on.... I am just so lucky to have a sister like mine! I love her so much, she really is an awesome person! I have always been free to be me around her, she is fresh air to me when things sometimes feel stagnant you know? Feeling free to be oneself will open a person up to so much! I Know, I'm there... so, even though she will not likely read this, I love you NeeNee, your the best!