childhood bribes and excercise...

you know, I get great writing ideas when im going to bed and then I cant remember them in the morning! I have done this on more than one occasion, and it drives me crazy!


I seem to remember a bribe that I was an active part of as a child. When i was 12 I got grounded and I never realy got un-grounded after that. I always did something to make my mom mad or whatever, but I did a lot when I was grounded, so who cared. One time I was allowed to go to a movie if I went with my sister. We both agreed early on that the movie sucked so we left. My lil sis and I have always had a scetchy relationship and this time was no different. I didnt want to waste the time out and I knew she would tell on me, so I asked her her price...I was to french brade her hair any time she wanted for the rest of the school year...it wasnt even Christmas yet! in exchane for going with me to a friends house and not telling. Im thinking about it now...I was probably 13-14 which made her 11-12. Anyway... I dont even remember where we went, or what we did, but I am sure she was out of place and uncomfertable there. Im sure she was trying realy hard to feel like she fit in around my friends and Im sure it wasnt possible(I barely fit in around my friends). I could even immagine me making it harder on her by saying something like "yea, I know but the only way I could come was if I brought HER" how auful!

You know she had me french brade her hair nearly every night and it had to be realy tight and good so that she could hairspray it and it still look good in the morning...it always did and I had no idea how it could withstand the night, but anyway, I felt like it was a steep payment but i agreed at the time so I made good on it. I am now grateful that I HAD to do it becausr while I was braiding her hair, I was being nice to her(most of the time), so at least we have all those half hour hair sessions to remember... makes me wanna go to her house(like 3 hours away) just to braid her hair, like right now:). I realy wanna braid Willie Nelsons hair too, but thats another story...:)


Anyway, I thought of all this because I cant seem to get Gabby to understand how important it is to treat her sisters nicely, especialy Jessica. While they were waiting for the bus it was bickering and fighting, Gabby grabing Jess's arm and gritting her teeth at her...I am trying soooo hard to stress the importance of treating family well...I told her that shes gonna be accountable when she gets older...shes gonna have to live with the choices shes making right now, and sadly Jessica will too. I can only do so much with Gabby, but I can also teach Jessica to be forgiving so that she doesnt carry the meanness with her through life...


SSSOOOOOOOO....thats been on my mind this morning.....


Also...I finaly went to the gym yesterday....I hurt pretty bad now(this is good). I had such a busy and active summer that I havnt been to the gym since june! I am ready to put it back into my daily routine...I have put on 8 lbs in the last few weeks with the weather being rainy and cold and my obsessiveness over awesome food and lack of excersise...I STILL crave ciggarettes(after 3 monthsw without one)and so I snack or drink coffee to get past the craving....gotta find a new habbit that doesnt put on the weight. Also, I am still going pop free and so now I crave sweets like 24-7! Im going crazy!!! Sugar addiction sucks if your prone to weight gain and side effects from artificial sweetener(wouldnt touch them anyway)! I cant keep enough fruit in the house to satisfy my sugar cravings! I wonder how long it will take for me to stop craving the sugar ALL the time? This is an addiction that does not get a lot of media attention, I wonder what studys have been done on it.



I want to sit here and write everything going through my mind, but its not working...I have already deleted about 500 words that Im sure you realy dont want to know about 2-4 different subjects and I think I will just post it and call it a blog...gotta turn it up... this blog is a downer...



How about what/who do I love?
I love hot water
I love Josh
I love 4 pretty little girls
I love Jesus
I love paint
I love music
I love blogs
I love sitting on the heater with a blanket
I love people who test the boundearies of "possible"
I love,love!
I love carving pumpkins
I love making holloween costumes
I love dressing up for holloween
I love kiwi
I love pears
I love coffee
I love cooking
I love you


thanks for reading...hopefuly I will be back in a normal writing state soon.... Ive just been in a funk, I guess...